I never believed that life could be this different. Recently, I got married to the love of my life. For us, there is no such or much difference; only our family accepts us with an open heart, now with confidence. Since childhood, like any other girl, I always used to think about how things would be different after marriage or if it would be difficult.
Well, talking about marriage, just opposite to my husband, I always used to think about its beautiful rituals, all those preparations, that special pampering from family, all those pre-marriage arrangements, and a lot more. I always wanted a wedding in the mountains, maybe in the valley, in an open courtyard, feeling the fresh air, with fewer people, wearing a beautiful lightweight maroon saree, and my groom in a handsome cream and pista-colored kurta with a turban on his head. No noise, just the two of us on our beautiful wedding day!
That exact scenario did not happen for many reasons, but I am not feeling regret about those misses. I am happy, even though my dream wasn't realized in that particular way. It's more important to have an amazing partner because if the person is right, instead of having butterflies or excitement, you will feel peace, satisfaction, focus, and stability in life.
Before I share something more about my life, let me share a short story with all of you. My husband and I were in the same company. We crossed paths so many times, never knowing that destiny had its own way of making us feel love for each other. I used to see him from a distance and think how weird he was. His rough look always made me curious to look at him, even if I found him rude. That strange attraction was different, and I cannot put it into words. Now that we are together for a lifetime, he shared that he also used to look at me and wanted to talk, but I never made efforts to interact.
Now, I become angry when he pays less attention to me. His attention means everything to me. I often get angry as well, but at the end of the day, we need each other.
We used to make plans about what we would do after marriage or once we start living together. However, it's not happening that way. But I feel life is not about planning too much. We cannot plan everything, neither happiness nor sadness. It's about how we learn to tackle those situations. Right now, I am feeling a mix of emotions, but maybe with the coming days, we will start doing what we wish for.
"Let me quickly check my schedule and find some happiness, even if something is not okay. Let me consciously feel happiness, which can eventually make things work." ~ Asha
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